Comments on: Mercy Ministries home to close http://www.mercysurvivors.com/2009/10/27/mercy-ministries-home-to-close/ Survivors of Mercy Ministries Abuses World Wide Wed, 24 Mar 2010 09:31:11 -0700 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.8 hourly 1 By: Mandi http://www.mercysurvivors.com/2009/10/27/mercy-ministries-home-to-close/comment-page-1/#comment-1620 Mandi Wed, 24 Mar 2010 09:31:11 +0000 http://www.mercysurvivors.com/?p=85#comment-1620 Wow Jill and Sarah i'm so overwhelmed and i can so totally relate to the object of being in fear of speaking out and offending or going against God. I was only in Mercy in Sydney Australia for 4 Mnths and during this time i was still suffering medical problems because they were making me eat more food than my body could handle and they declared that God told had told them too let me go but actually God had answered my prayers because i was really asking God to help me get out of there as i was not coping any more so i was glad when i left and i was totally a mess when i left worse than when i went in for a while because i felt like a failure for not finnishing the program and felt like i let god down .there was so much hypocriscy about living in the "Grace" and "obediance" of God's ways and i do not feel through what i went through and witnessed of other girls that some mercy staff and really the program itself was how really a great example of god's "Grace" or "Mercy" Wow Jill and Sarah i’m so overwhelmed and i can so totally relate to the object of being in fear of speaking out and offending or going against God. I was only in Mercy in Sydney Australia for 4 Mnths and during this time i was still suffering medical problems because they were making me eat more food than my body could handle and they declared that God told had told them too let me go but actually God had answered my prayers because i was really asking God to help me get out of there as i was not coping any more so i was glad when i left and i was totally a mess when i left worse than when i went in for a while because i felt like a failure for not finnishing the program and felt like i let god down .there was so much hypocriscy about living in the “Grace” and “obediance” of God’s ways and i do not feel through what i went through and witnessed of other girls that some mercy staff and really the program itself was how really a great example of god’s “Grace” or “Mercy”

]]> By: Sarah http://www.mercysurvivors.com/2009/10/27/mercy-ministries-home-to-close/comment-page-1/#comment-1195 Sarah Fri, 08 Jan 2010 10:01:36 +0000 http://www.mercysurvivors.com/?p=85#comment-1195 Jill, so sorry to hear you're afraid to speak. It took me a really long time to be able to begin to verbalise what happened to me in the home. And because i had been so brainwashed about what slander was, about what the will of God was etc, i found it extremely confusing and difficult to speak out at first too. I think i am still overcoming some of that. It might help for you to read a book called "The Subtle Power of Spiritual Abuse". It switched on so many lights when i read it and it helped me understand why i felt so confused. Just know that Mercy's will is not God's will, and Mercy's judgment is not God's judgment. This may take awhile to understand. Jill, so sorry to hear you’re afraid to speak.

It took me a really long time to be able to begin to verbalise what happened to me in the home. And because i had been so brainwashed about what slander was, about what the will of God was etc, i found it extremely confusing and difficult to speak out at first too. I think i am still overcoming some of that.

It might help for you to read a book called “The Subtle Power of Spiritual Abuse”. It switched on so many lights when i read it and it helped me understand why i felt so confused.

Just know that Mercy’s will is not God’s will, and Mercy’s judgment is not God’s judgment. This may take awhile to understand.

]]> By: Heather http://www.mercysurvivors.com/2009/10/27/mercy-ministries-home-to-close/comment-page-1/#comment-1180 Heather Fri, 01 Jan 2010 07:17:03 +0000 http://www.mercysurvivors.com/?p=85#comment-1180 I really do find it a stretch of logic that Hillsong thinks they can cut ties with Mercy Ministries when pillars of their church were helping to run the place in Australia! I'll pray for these people!!! Hopefully the next ministry is correctly managed. Who owned the property that was recipient of $100 000 in donations used for renovations just prior to closing down and going on the market for 2+M dollars? I really do find it a stretch of logic that Hillsong thinks they can cut ties with Mercy Ministries when pillars of their church were helping to run the place in Australia! I’ll pray for these people!!! Hopefully the next ministry is correctly managed.

Who owned the property that was recipient of $100 000 in donations used for renovations just prior to closing down and going on the market for 2+M dollars?

]]> By: Craig Young http://www.mercysurvivors.com/2009/10/27/mercy-ministries-home-to-close/comment-page-1/#comment-1140 Craig Young Wed, 16 Dec 2009 21:00:04 +0000 http://www.mercysurvivors.com/?p=85#comment-1140 Just read the news on SMH. Congratulations! I'm glad that you've finally prevailed after the devastation and pain that unpleasant pack of charlatans caused in your lives. I've written it up for NZ readers at: http://gaynz.com/blog/redqueen/archives/795 XXX Craig Young Just read the news on SMH.

Congratulations! I’m glad that you’ve finally prevailed after the devastation and
pain that unpleasant pack of charlatans caused in your lives.

I’ve written it up for NZ readers at:

http://gaynz.com/blog/redqueen/archives/795

XXX
Craig Young

]]> By: Jill http://www.mercysurvivors.com/2009/10/27/mercy-ministries-home-to-close/comment-page-1/#comment-1044 Jill Sun, 08 Nov 2009 23:04:21 +0000 http://www.mercysurvivors.com/?p=85#comment-1044 Prisoner, I'm glad we are able to talk about this now. I wonder how many girls experienced the wrath of Nancy when she was mad. I'll bet they could not imagin living with her. I am always afraid to approach people in my church now because I'm worried that they will reject me or not have time to even say hello. Fortunately, I take that risk now and I'm never ignored. That is what it is suppose to be like. I can't believe I stayed away from church for so long because of Mercy. Hummm isn't that the opposit of their claim? I truly would not have anything to do with an organized group because I was worried that I would be tricked, trapped or held down and prayed over. I wonder how many other people killed themselves after leaving Mercy, like our former house mate. It is crazy. I'm glad your posting on this too. I was so glad to hear that I was not the only one experiencing bad dreams after 20 years. Thanks for posting. Prisoner,

I’m glad we are able to talk about this now. I wonder how many girls experienced the wrath of Nancy when she was mad. I’ll bet they could not imagin living with her. I am always afraid to approach people in my church now because I’m worried that they will reject me or not have time to even say hello. Fortunately, I take that risk now and I’m never ignored. That is what it is suppose to be like. I can’t believe I stayed away from church for so long because of Mercy. Hummm isn’t that the opposit of their claim? I truly would not have anything to do with an organized group because I was worried that I would be tricked, trapped or held down and prayed over. I wonder how many other people killed themselves after leaving Mercy, like our former house mate. It is crazy. I’m glad your posting on this too. I was so glad to hear that I was not the only one experiencing bad dreams after 20 years. Thanks for posting.

]]> By: Jill http://www.mercysurvivors.com/2009/10/27/mercy-ministries-home-to-close/comment-page-1/#comment-1043 Jill Sun, 08 Nov 2009 13:42:59 +0000 http://www.mercysurvivors.com/?p=85#comment-1043 In reading more on the web. I'm learning that I am not the only person out there that has the fears about coming against Nancy and experiencing her anger. She actually lived at the house when I was there, so we saw her daily and experienced her rath when we did something considered a sin. I was actually able to connect with another person that was there when I was. She experienced the same rejection and treatment I did. I'm hoping she will post on here as well. This has been going on for 25 years and I'm certain that there are hundreds of survivors that are simply afraid to go against "God" by talking bad about Mercy Ministries. In reading more on the web. I’m learning that I am not the only person out there that has the fears about coming against Nancy and experiencing her anger. She actually lived at the house when I was there, so we saw her daily and experienced her rath when we did something considered a sin. I was actually able to connect with another person that was there when I was. She experienced the same rejection and treatment I did. I’m hoping she will post on here as well. This has been going on for 25 years and I’m certain that there are hundreds of survivors that are simply afraid to go against “God” by talking bad about Mercy Ministries.

]]> By: Jill http://www.mercysurvivors.com/2009/10/27/mercy-ministries-home-to-close/comment-page-1/#comment-1042 Jill Sun, 08 Nov 2009 05:03:31 +0000 http://www.mercysurvivors.com/?p=85#comment-1042 I want to say so much, but I have a lot of fear about being out of the protection of God and coming against His people etc. I was at Mercy for over a year. At the time it was called Covenant Ministries. They were forced to change their name in the 80s. I experienced asking to go to the restroom, having to confess for something I didn't do, Having staff accompany me to the bathroom (I wasn't there for an eating disorder, I was there for drug addiction). I remember the constant lectures, satelite lessons, tapes, Quoting from the little book "God's Creative Power" and so on. I have not been in a church for years because of this, but have recently joined a more traditionsl one. I have really been dealing with some of the things from 20 years ago that I should be over by now. I'm confussed and frustrated. I think if I say something, I will be talking against God Himself. I was told I could leave at any time, but I was also told that I would nolonger be under His protection because I would be out of the will of God. Oh and there were no qualified persons working at Mercy when I was there. Nancy was the only one that held a degree of any kind and I think it was in social work. Has anyone had to go through reprogramming because of this place? I think I might need to. I really thought all of this was behind me. I want to say so much, but I have a lot of fear about being out of the protection of God and coming against His people etc. I was at Mercy for over a year. At the time it was called Covenant Ministries. They were forced to change their name in the 80s. I experienced asking to go to the restroom, having to confess for something I didn’t do, Having staff accompany me to the bathroom (I wasn’t there for an eating disorder, I was there for drug addiction). I remember the constant lectures, satelite lessons, tapes, Quoting from the little book “God’s Creative Power” and so on. I have not been in a church for years because of this, but have recently joined a more traditionsl one. I have really been dealing with some of the things from 20 years ago that I should be over by now. I’m confussed and frustrated. I think if I say something, I will be talking against God Himself. I was told I could leave at any time, but I was also told that I would nolonger be under His protection because I would be out of the will of God. Oh and there were no qualified persons working at Mercy when I was there. Nancy was the only one that held a degree of any kind and I think it was in social work. Has anyone had to go through reprogramming because of this place? I think I might need to. I really thought all of this was behind me.

]]> By: Prisoner 1985-1987 http://www.mercysurvivors.com/2009/10/27/mercy-ministries-home-to-close/comment-page-1/#comment-1039 Prisoner 1985-1987 Sun, 08 Nov 2009 04:16:58 +0000 http://www.mercysurvivors.com/?p=85#comment-1039 I was one of the very first girls to go through the Covenant Ministries Program, now called Mercy Ministries. I was there for 2.5 years, starting 1985. To this day, I have dreams about the exorcisms that were performed on me for having a "spirit of lust" for being gay. I wasn't allowed to wear men's jeans, or be in another room with another girl, with the door closed. When we were sick, we weren't allowed to go to the dr.--we were prayed for, and then when we were still sick, we were told that "we didn't have enough faith." I am SO glad that this website exists because I was so much more screwed up when I left this place, than when I entered. Thank God, the real God, that people are speaking up. I was one of the very first girls to go through the Covenant Ministries Program, now called Mercy Ministries. I was there for 2.5 years, starting 1985. To this day, I have dreams about the exorcisms that were performed on me for having a “spirit of lust” for being gay. I wasn’t allowed to wear men’s jeans, or be in another room with another girl, with the door closed. When we were sick, we weren’t allowed to go to the dr.–we were prayed for, and then when we were still sick, we were told that “we didn’t have enough faith.” I am SO glad that this website exists because I was so much more screwed up when I left this place, than when I entered. Thank God, the real God, that people are speaking up.

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